How do you deal with Depression?
I know this is the wrong forum to talk about something like this but I really need some advice on how to deal with this. I honestly don't know why I'm so depressed all the time, I've always been a 'happy go lucky' kid growing up and have been I think up until I turned 20. Like I literally just said, I honestly don't know why, I'm just always in a bad mood, constantly sad, just never want to do anything any more.
I don't believe in taking medications to deal with feelings, and every time I talk to a counselor it's always the same old shit. "Go outside take deep breaths and go for a walk and empty your thoughts" story... I'm only asking and making this thread because I'm at an all time low.. I've never felt so alone and depressed in my life, and I'm dead serious when I say this, I had two thoughts of suicide, just because I feel like giving up about 90% of the time.
I already understand I'm going to get made fun of for this but whatever, I'm just in need of serious advice before I do something stupid, and something I'll regret. Thanks to anyone that took the time to read this and post below.